kaito gifset i made forever ago

 

i dont remember what video i sourced these from. ill update when i find it.

update: i cannot for the life of me find this video anymore. :/

the forth of july

 this forth of july was steadfastly OK. i wanted to go downtown to see the firework show there, but i couldnt. :P still, i got to see some fireworks though. a few houses in my vicinity did some popped some! to be honest, i mostly wanted to capture some on my camera for my summer memories project that im working on. and i totally did! also, i had like two root beer floats. i walked to the supermarket down the street at like 9 pm to get ice cream and root beer lol. i thought i recognized the guy at the cashier, but i didnt. people didnt really start popping fireworks in my neighborhood until i walked back to my house, i waited on the street corner for a little bit to see if i could capture some, and my ice cream melted! when i made it back to my house, i saw that a house pretty close to me was popping fireworks, so i got to capture those. although to get a good view, i had to stand at a corner under s street light. i hope i didnt look suspicious or anything lol. after a while, they stopped popping fireworks and i resorted to waiting at the front of my house. to be honest, i was pretty fun staying outside at night and messing around. i got some pretty good shots of fireworks! after a while, thr fireworks slowed down and i got tired, so i went inside. my only regret is that i didnt get to pop any sparklers. 7/10

sunny

 finished sunny by taiyo matsumoto today. the last chapter broke my heart. i hope those kids makes it out alright.

 the people over at bomb pops are so full of themselves. the serving size is three popsicles!!! who eats three frozen treats in one sitting!?

shoujo boyfriend

 whenever i read shoujo manga i think... "i want a boyfriend!" and then i chastise myself for being delusional. but then again... its a normal feeling, that a lot of people feel. its okay to feel that, but i shouldnt mix reality with shoujo. in real life, you cant expect a boy to say "im going to protect you forever!" and be able to follow on that promise, no matter how much you or him actualy want to. its unfair for others and yourself to have such high expections... and as much as a boy in a shoujo manga can make your heart throb, getting to know a boy in real life is much more interesting, isnt it? a boy in real life has a past and future not bound to a predetermined story, and real life doesnt follow the same story beats or character archetypes that a shoujo can have. life isnt made to be read by teenaged girls and serialized weekly in a magazine. life is messy and can be as overwhelming or underwhelming, and is more bittersweet than any shoujo manga can ever be, which makes it so much more worth experiencing... i think. idk. 

reading a good shoujo manga makes me think way too much. 

(im reading "high school debut" btw, its really really good so far the leads are SO cute)

scary thing that happend to me like RIGHT NOW (okay like an hour ago)

 hi hello my name is monstii and i enjoy the free will of going outside for walks. 

right now its summer in texas, so the sun is so bright during the day that you'd probably actually die if you were outside too long. (or at least, I'D die.) so i decided to go outside once the sun started setting. it was still light outside, though. 

ive been outside late, and i live in a pretty okay neighborhood so i wasnt really scared at all, but this encounter actually made me kinda scared of going out late lol. 

my usual walking route takes me past my highschool and towards a main street, then either i turn around or go across the street where theres an HEB and some thrift stores, usually takes me like less than an hour.

...thats not really important. 

as im going up on my highschool, (which is in the middle of the neighborhood,) i see this kid about my age (maybe about a year or two younger, idk) walking in the opposite direction of me. not that weird, considering we were in the middle of a neighborhood, next to a highschool, thats also near two pretty busy streets, so i just pass him up and continue on my way.

then i hear footsteps coming up behind me. 

(me; internally:) ohshit is he following me

i try my best to be rational in my head, "oh, hes probably just heading in the other direction, he'll pass me up" but i still looked behind me out of paranoia. i glanced behind myself a few times before i realized hes actually trying to get my attention. heres my best inscription of the conversation we had:

him: ay, ay, (trying to get my attention)

(i turn around to face him, as i thought, its a guy my age or a little younger.)

me: ?

him: what are you?

(he had a pretty thick accent and spoke in terse sentences, so im guessing he wasnt fluent in english? its pretty common were im from.)

me: huh?

him" what are you?

me: like...

him: what are you??

me: what do you mean?

him: gender, what are you?

(im a really feminine guy and i dress in girls clothes, also i just cut my hair really short so im extra androgynous, so his confusion was kinda understandable, but still ballsy to come up and ask a random person on the street)

me: im a guy.

(he then made a pretty comical confused face, like im talking his whole body moved. wasnt expecting him to react so much lol)

me: (laughing,) i know, right?

i dont remember who turned around first and walked off first, but that was the end of that conversation.

...or so i thought!

i walked up more, thinking nothing more than that i just had a pretty funny interection with a random, but then the guy came up to me again.

him: come, follow me

me: ?????

(he caught me pretty off guard and then walked in the same direction i was going, so i kept going in the same direction as well, not really thinking. we walked just a little bit down the street to a house with an alley behind it.

behind the houses in my neighborhood are little alleys in between the backyards, just big enough for a car to go through, but most are really overgrown and no one really goes there.)

him: (i couldnt tell if he was referring to the alleyway or the open backyard of the house we stopped at) come in here.

my FUCK THIS alarm went off in my head crazy so i made up a pretty lame excuse to not follow this kid into some overgrown alley/ random backyard.

me: sorry, im kinda in a rush, so, i gotta go...

him: what?

me: i got this thing i gotta do, sorry!

him: what do you mean?

me: i gotta go, sorry!

i couldnt tell if he was angry or bewildered but i kept on walking at a brisk pace cause i was pretty spooked. i dont think he wouldve hurt me, cause he was shorter than me and pretty scrawny, but i didnt want to risk anything. i kept looking over my shoulder as i walked to make sure he wasnt following me anymore, but he just stayed at that house looking at me. i think he called put to me a few times, i think he was telling me to turn back? like hell i would do that! eventually he went back into the alley/backyard and i didnt see him again. i avoided that street when i walked back home. i hope i dont have to avoid it anymore, cause i really like that area, but who knows. 

cause i like giving the benefit of the doubt to people, i can just brush it off as some weird kid doing weird kid stuff, maybe he thought i was cute, idk. im kinda curious what would've happened if i had followed him more, but i think missing out on a side quest is better than potentially getting touched inappropriately 

monstii out.

I MADE A PICREW

 

hi my name is monstii and i like drawing a while lot. like a lot a lot i think its becoming a problem BUT THATS BESIDES THE PONIT!!!!

i made a picrew you can go mess around with it by clicking the image aboive!!! (html magicks)

standard like rules apply dont use it for commerical purposes and if you do use the image you made crediying me would be appriciated!! other than that go wild!!! 

to be completely honest i had made this a few months earlier (ok like 1 or 2 but you get the point) BUT it got taken down because i had used a picrure of raidou kuzunoha (SMT JUMPSCARE) as the cover image as a place holder and i guess the picrew gods didnt like that and i had to make it from scratch all over again because they never responded to my appeal but WHATEVER its all in da past now!!!!!

thats it have a nice day(OR NIGHT ehehehehe >:3) 

monstii singing off 

not signing singing lalalaladeda