the people over at bomb pops are so full of themselves. the serving size is three popsicles!!! who eats three frozen treats in one sitting!?

shoujo boyfriend

 whenever i read shoujo manga i think... "i want a boyfriend!" and then i chastise myself for being delusional. but then again... its a normal feeling, that a lot of people feel. its okay to feel that, but i shouldnt mix reality with shoujo. in real life, you cant expect a boy to say "im going to protect you forever!" and be able to follow on that promise, no matter how much you or him actualy want to. its unfair for others and yourself to have such high expections... and as much as a boy in a shoujo manga can make your heart throb, getting to know a boy in real life is much more interesting, isnt it? a boy in real life has a past and future not bound to a predetermined story, and real life doesnt follow the same story beats or character archetypes that a shoujo can have. life isnt made to be read by teenaged girls and serialized weekly in a magazine. life is messy and can be as overwhelming or underwhelming, and is more bittersweet than any shoujo manga can ever be, which makes it so much more worth experiencing... i think. idk. 

reading a good shoujo manga makes me think way too much. 

(im reading "high school debut" btw, its really really good so far the leads are SO cute)

scary thing that happend to me like RIGHT NOW (okay like an hour ago)

 hi hello my name is monstii and i enjoy the free will of going outside for walks. 

right now its summer in texas, so the sun is so bright during the day that you'd probably actually die if you were outside too long. (or at least, I'D die.) so i decided to go outside once the sun started setting. it was still light outside, though. 

ive been outside late, and i live in a pretty okay neighborhood so i wasnt really scared at all, but this encounter actually made me kinda scared of going out late lol. 

my usual walking route takes me past my highschool and towards a main street, then either i turn around or go across the street where theres an HEB and some thrift stores, usually takes me like less than an hour.

...thats not really important. 

as im going up on my highschool, (which is in the middle of the neighborhood,) i see this kid about my age (maybe about a year or two younger, idk) walking in the opposite direction of me. not that weird, considering we were in the middle of a neighborhood, next to a highschool, thats also near two pretty busy streets, so i just pass him up and continue on my way.

then i hear footsteps coming up behind me. 

(me; internally:) ohshit is he following me

i try my best to be rational in my head, "oh, hes probably just heading in the other direction, he'll pass me up" but i still looked behind me out of paranoia. i glanced behind myself a few times before i realized hes actually trying to get my attention. heres my best inscription of the conversation we had:

him: ay, ay, (trying to get my attention)

(i turn around to face him, as i thought, its a guy my age or a little younger.)

me: ?

him: what are you?

(he had a pretty thick accent and spoke in terse sentences, so im guessing he wasnt fluent in english? its pretty common were im from.)

me: huh?

him" what are you?

me: like...

him: what are you??

me: what do you mean?

him: gender, what are you?

(im a really feminine guy and i dress in girls clothes, also i just cut my hair really short so im extra androgynous, so his confusion was kinda understandable, but still ballsy to come up and ask a random person on the street)

me: im a guy.

(he then made a pretty comical confused face, like im talking his whole body moved. wasnt expecting him to react so much lol)

me: (laughing,) i know, right?

i dont remember who turned around first and walked off first, but that was the end of that conversation.

...or so i thought!

i walked up more, thinking nothing more than that i just had a pretty funny interection with a random, but then the guy came up to me again.

him: come, follow me

me: ?????

(he caught me pretty off guard and then walked in the same direction i was going, so i kept going in the same direction as well, not really thinking. we walked just a little bit down the street to a house with an alley behind it.

behind the houses in my neighborhood are little alleys in between the backyards, just big enough for a car to go through, but most are really overgrown and no one really goes there.)

him: (i couldnt tell if he was referring to the alleyway or the open backyard of the house we stopped at) come in here.

my FUCK THIS alarm went off in my head crazy so i made up a pretty lame excuse to not follow this kid into some overgrown alley/ random backyard.

me: sorry, im kinda in a rush, so, i gotta go...

him: what?

me: i got this thing i gotta do, sorry!

him: what do you mean?

me: i gotta go, sorry!

i couldnt tell if he was angry or bewildered but i kept on walking at a brisk pace cause i was pretty spooked. i dont think he wouldve hurt me, cause he was shorter than me and pretty scrawny, but i didnt want to risk anything. i kept looking over my shoulder as i walked to make sure he wasnt following me anymore, but he just stayed at that house looking at me. i think he called put to me a few times, i think he was telling me to turn back? like hell i would do that! eventually he went back into the alley/backyard and i didnt see him again. i avoided that street when i walked back home. i hope i dont have to avoid it anymore, cause i really like that area, but who knows. 

cause i like giving the benefit of the doubt to people, i can just brush it off as some weird kid doing weird kid stuff, maybe he thought i was cute, idk. im kinda curious what would've happened if i had followed him more, but i think missing out on a side quest is better than potentially getting touched inappropriately 

monstii out.

I MADE A PICREW

 

hi my name is monstii and i like drawing a while lot. like a lot a lot i think its becoming a problem BUT THATS BESIDES THE PONIT!!!!

i made a picrew you can go mess around with it by clicking the image aboive!!! (html magicks)

standard like rules apply dont use it for commerical purposes and if you do use the image you made crediying me would be appriciated!! other than that go wild!!! 

to be completely honest i had made this a few months earlier (ok like 1 or 2 but you get the point) BUT it got taken down because i had used a picrure of raidou kuzunoha (SMT JUMPSCARE) as the cover image as a place holder and i guess the picrew gods didnt like that and i had to make it from scratch all over again because they never responded to my appeal but WHATEVER its all in da past now!!!!!

thats it have a nice day(OR NIGHT ehehehehe >:3) 

monstii singing off 

not signing singing lalalaladeda

a follow up to the smart post!!!

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link to smart on spotify 

you can also find them on other music streaming platforms such as apple music and tidal.

they focus on yamanaka a lot in the okinawa live video

hi my name is monstii and ive made a great discovery!!! there is not two, but three smart albums! yes, you heard me right! i missed one :(

the album in question is Reverie Musee, released in 1993. two years before their self-titled. 

it seems as if yamanaka isnt involved in this album?
i have no concrete proof, but its just a hunch.

I found out this existed like an hour ago, when i was looking for an hd version of self-titled's cover. when i went to smart's page on apple music, there were other albums by other people with the name smart, but this one has the logo (sm:art) and is spotify (as well as other streaming platforms, but on spotify it lists suzuki as writer/producer/arranger.) when i was digging for info for my first post on smart, i hadn't thought to check on music streaming platforms. i have no idea why! i guess i assumed i wouldnt find anything or they would be region locked or something. (which they arent, thank god)

discogs doesnt have or the yt channel that posted their other two albums OR smart's official(?) yt didnt have any mention of reverie musee, so i asuumed that self titled and zai phon were they only albums that smart had realesed in its lifetime. i guess not!! i cant find anything else on this album, other than the fact that suzuki is the writer/producer/arranger and its "author" (as spotify puts it, im not actually sure what that means) is a Mayumi. i have s very small inkling of who that could be, as there is a mayumi credited as a lyricist on self-titled, so that could be them? the author for self titled, YOU, is also credited as a lyricist. im guessing that the lyricists got the rights to distribute the album? i guess??? i dont know... :B

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their promotional material is so cool

truth be told, i have not listened to the album yet! when i found about it, i got really excited and decided to make a post about it right away! (i am typing this instead of doing homework) i have listened to a preview of it however, and what i listened to sounds basically what i expected early smart to sound like! i will elaborate more when i listen to it, which will be an edit to this post!

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Second-to-lastly, i would like to theorize a tiny bit! i have two educated guesses as to why smarts first album isnt documented like the others: 

the first is that reverie musee was realeased before smart officially "debuted" (basically sign on to a major label and get out of being indie, its more of a big deal in japan than in the west) i say this because there is no promotional material (that i know of) which would've been posted on the smart yt channel (probably) while zai phon and self-titled have mvs and commercials. my other piece of evidence is that it seems like there is no record label attached to reverie musee. on spotify, suzuki is listed as producer, composer and arranger, while self titled and and zai phon have other producers and suzuki is only listed as composer. the little triangle on the bottom right says smart, and while its not unusual, the other two albums dont have this little triangle. perhaps an independent label? smart's last two albums were released on eastworld and i dont have much reason to think that this was also released on eastworld.

my second theory is just simply lost/a lack of information. ive noticed that a lot of the information that ive used as sources for these posts (discogs, yt uploads etc) are just under two years old. for a band that has been around since 1993, thats kind of crazy! im not too sure what the sudden influx of smart info in 2022 is about, but most of it comes from 1995-1996 when self-titled had come out and zai phon was coming out. before or after that there is basically nothing i have gathered. (aside from the members other pursuits, but even then there there isnt much.) 

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as much as i can theorize, i dont think answers are coming any time soon. smart is still really darn obscure! on spotify, they have 7 monthly listeners! ive never seen anything under 1000, let alone a single digit! i hope someday smart gets a second wind in the mainstream, as there a lot of questions i have that remain unanswered, most notably:

where did suzuki go? her name isnt attached to anything not-smart related, and it seems like she disappeared off the face of the earth after zai-phon's release. while its not unheard of for artists to not do music anymore and get away from the public eye, i think suzuki is a really talented producer and songwriter, and it makes me kind of sad that she never did anything other than being in smart. 

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thats basically all i have to say, and after i review reverie musee, my final post about smart until i find anymore big information!

have a great day and as always,

monstii signing off. 

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music - ITS OUT ITS FINALLY OUT

 

HI MY NAME IS MONSTII YOU CAN LISTEN TO MY NEW EP HERE THANK YOU HOLY MOLY

hi my name is monstii and i am a very calm person. i did it!! yippee!! hooray!! wahoo!!

as promised, monstii's ep flower thinking // easy living has been released from its containment! you can either listen to it on youtube or bandcamp as i have previously linked! go!!! help it integrate with society!!!! its very lonely...!

hmmm not much else to say besides that. no rambling today, sorry! 

as much as i would like to joke about deadlines, no one would get them because no one reads these. (or perhaps my loyal fanbase is all bugs who cannot type on their compuers... if that is so, i am so sorry.)

i'll leave you with these humorous .gifs that i made using a very handy website!!!! (not sponsored) 

ok monstii signing off. having a really great super great day!111!!!!

flower thinking//easy living coming soon!

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yeahhh babey

hi! my name is monstii and i said this would come out before august 13th.

that didn't happen. 

turns out that adjusting back to school would consume a lot more of my time and energy than i thought, so work stopped for a while. im still working on finding the balance of hobbies and work, but i have enough free time now to continue working on music!

if im not lazy, monstii's new ep should be up on youtube and bandcamp in the next few weeks. please stay tuned!

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