upcoming birthday

as i sit here right now on my bed, at my computer, it is two days before my birthday. my 18th birthday. as i sit here writing this blog post, i realize that the final summer of my youth has already reached a middle point. what a confusing summer it has been, terrible in many ways that summer usually is for me, but also exciting and hopeful, in many ways that summer has not before. this summer marks a great shifting point as i stand at what feels to be a cliff, with a tumultuous past behind me on the level ground and a scary, yet bright jump ahead, with no idea what waits for me at the bottom. (for some reason writing ridiculously eloquent helps me portray my feelings better. please bear with me)